Sunday, May 12, 2013

Mother's Day

"Motherhood is a choice you make everyday, to put someone else's happiness and well-being ahead of your own, to teach the hard lessons, to do the right thing even when you're not sure what the right thing is...and to forgive yourself, over and over again, for doing everything wrong.” 
- Donna Ball, author, from her book At Home on Ladybug Farm
I have the most wonderful mom in the world. Words cannot describe our bond. We are so in tune we know when to call each other. We know when the other needs to talk or is hurting. I love my mom with all my heart. 

Becoming a mom was the greatest joy I could ever imagine. I have three wonderful children. Two daughters and a son. We have endured so much together. Our life together has been far from perfect but what has never changed, ever in my whole life is the amount of love I have for them. How much I think about them every day.

I want my children to know that no matter how many mistakes I made in our lives, my love for them never dwindled or went away. I loved them when they were born, growing up, when we were together and when we were apart. I loved them more the next day than the previous. I will love them no matter what they do or who they become. I will love them always.

 My love is endless, boundless, and straight from my heart.

I want to apologize to my children for all the pain and suffering they went through due to my Bipolar Disorder. If I had a choice, I would choose not to have Bipolar. Since I don't have that choice I can only apologize and beg for your forgiveness. I will be sorry from now until the end of time and beyond. 

I believe in each of my children. And I thank God for the beautiful grandchildren they have given me. 

To all the mothers everywhere who are reading this message:


The Dose of Reality said...

A beautiful post Vicki. Truly so heartfelt and honest. No doubt your children were touched by this. Happy Mother's Day!-The Dose Girls

Robin said...

Beautiful post. I have felt the need to apologize to my children for my mental health issues so many times over the years. I try to live like life is normal and hope my issues will teach them compassion and not send them to therapy, but I guess there's no way to know. I'm doing the best I can -- just like you are. And that's all any of us can do.

Thanks for letting me know I'm not alone in worrying about how my mental health issues affect my children. It's nice to know I'm not alone. I hope you had a lovely Mother's Day. I did.

Michelle said...

Such a genuine post Vicki! I think we all have things we think back on and wish we could change, but the bottom line is we love our children no matter what and hopefully they know it.