Friday, February 01, 2013

Five Minute Friday - Afraid


This is my first attempt at the "Five Minute Friday" blogging post. The inspiration comes from Lisa Jo Baker

What you do is set your timer for five minutes and write whatever you want according to the prompt Lisa places on her blog every Friday. Then you go back, link your blog and give support to those who posted before you. And, we connect on Twitter with #FiveMinuteFriday

So, today's prompt word was "AFRAID". 



I am naturally afraid of everything. I take that back, I worry about being afraid of everything. I am afraid my husband will get in an accident while commuting to work. I’m afraid my children will lose their jobs or have some terrible illness befall them. I’m afraid that my grandchildren won’t know love or happiness or the beautiful innocence of just being a child.

I’m afraid that some kind of illness will take over my parrot, Bailey, or my dog, Jack. I love them so much and they are so much of a support system for my Bipolar Disorder therapy and me that I don’t know if I could handle having something happen to them. I take anti-anxiety medication all day long, just to keep a tamper on my run away anxiety and worry and fear. It helps. It gives me hope that my fears are unfounded and just nasty voices in my head whispering my deepest fears to me when I least expect it.

I haven’t always been afraid. I used to ride sport motorcycles and ride on the back of my husband’s sport bike going 140 miles per hour. I loved the way I could stare fear down and have it back down, not me.  Those days are gone. Are you afraid of something in your life? How do you handle it?

8 comments:

STILLMAGNOLIA said...

Stopping in from Five Minute Friday to encourage you to stay with us. Your post was wonderful. Have a wonderful weekend!

Vicki M. Taylor said...

Thank you, I'm brand new at this FMF stuff, but like it a lot, so will be back for more!

Unknown said...

Hi Vicky
I am sorry to hear that you are battling such fears! I know it can be downright crippling!
Much love
Mia

Vicki M. Taylor said...

Thanks, Mia, I appreciate the comment.

Debi said...

Way to be so open and honest in your writing. Great job!

Vicki M. Taylor said...

Hi Debi, thanks so much. I appreciate your comment.

Debora Dennis said...

Found you post on the SITS girls site...What a great post! I'm afraid of a lot of things too - the key I think is not to let it stop us! Have a great week!

Vicki M. Taylor said...

Debora, thanks for stopping by. You're right. The key is to not let our fear stop us. Some of our greatest fears can turn into terrific conquests.